Who am I?

Why do things end up like this over and over? I can't get over you but i'm not even sure if I want to. You're honestly my drug. I wish I could spend every minute of the day with you. I don't know how you feel about me though. I've hurt you enough to where I would understand your guards being up. I just wish you knew if I had one more chance with you, I would cherish it more than anything. I'm not brave enough to let you know these things because i'm afraid of rejection but I can't continue to let myself feel like this and you not know. Please give me a sign. Once that is done, every single feeling I have towards you would come spilling out of me. You're my first love. I could go on and on with this but I think i'll stop now.. *06/29/10