Ok, wow.

Oh goodness. The situations I get myself into. Three girls. Two are the ones fighting my heart the most. The third one has potential but it's not there completely yet. However, two of these girls happen to be my ex. Any time I get to know another girl or find interest, here you come. I always get that one message that just keeps me involved with you. I hate getting messages from you. It's like you know the perfect shit to say that fucks up my whole day; I thought that all these feelings went away. However, I still text you back saying I miss you too. You know where my heart is and you make it a slight point to make it seem like you're interested, but I just never know. You have a guy who tells you he loves you and you tell me you don't say it back and that you guys aren't dating. I don't know if that's giving me an oppurtunity to move in and make something happen or if I am supposed to keep us as friends until a later time. I want it now to be honest. As for my most recent ex, you tell me time after time you are in love with me. Over and over and over again I hear it, and I love to hear it. You and I have the best time in the world together and when I kiss you, everything just disappears. I know how you are when it comes to flirting with other guys and you hold on to your past just as much as I do with Emily. I know that I can't be mad there, because I do the same. You also have a guy. You tell me you are in love with me while you are around him though. So, obviously you are being honest with your feelings. I can't wait to see you today. The question I'm asking myself is who would I want to see more? Is that question even possible to answer? Now, for the girl I'm talking to now, we have awesome conversations and we get along great. Buttttt,,, we have the middle school awkward stage that everyone has.... IN MIDDLE SCHOOL. I haven't dealt with that in a loong time. I would back out of this easily right now, but guess what? We had to kiss and make it harder on me. That's all I have to say as of right now.